It seems to be a never ending cycle doesn't it. Been there too.........heck I'm still there.

I've lost count of all the different meds and different combinations there of. Since in a lot of cases you have to ramp up on the dosage to max. It has taken months, years.

For awhile you get your hopes up, feel slight improvement, begin to think you have found the silver lining.

Then lab tests begin to fluctuate. Numbers going up. Numbers going down. Numbers out of "balance".

That glimmer of hope begins to fade. You feel the weight of the depression returning.

All that is left are the tears.