i want to say something... but im going to try not to say much... i think clearly i shouldnt...

its just this...
i may seem psychotic, i know i question the possibilities constantly... and it causes great distress because i am angered by the possibility of just not having a grasp on reality in-which is causing such turmoil...

so as one that may be possibly psychotic... in the sense that im so disconnected....
the sense that i have a hard time seeing the world as others...

its just that when i think of psychosis, i think of the very same thing... reality testing is an important feature to discern when something becomes psychotic...
the ability to derive whats real and not...

so as ones mind such as mine runs in circles... and loops things because of an obsessive nature... its easy to become confused, and to wonder, and to not be sure, and at the same time to not be psychotic... but simply greatly confused....
but when does great confusion become psychosis?

my thought has always been that psychosis was to be assigned to such a feature when one begins to have conflict with reality... you start to hallucinate, see things coming out of the wall, that is something i consider psychotic...
you start to have delusions, that involve paranoia, misbeliefs that your hair is turning into worms that will eat your brains... that is psychotic...
the delusions can involve small things unclearly which is why i struggle with the idea of psychosis because perhaps i am psychotic and i just am too stupid to realize it... being that i have difficulty realizing the true nature of my feelings...
but my feelings dont manifest into such great delusions or hallucinations...

from everything i have read it seems that great scholars have confused dissociative experiences with psychosis a great deal amount of the times... so it can only be natural that an individual experiencing either or would experience a greater deal of confusion simply because the professionals look at you like a wacko....
no offense to any one experiencing either or....

so my conclusion is just that...
reality testing is when you are sitting there feeling like a complete nutjob, driving yourself insane, but at the same time trying to figure out what is going on, asking yourself... why?
because during a psychosis you dont ask why... you simply react... you dont ask, you dont test... the testing is simple... its a simple act that the mind does on its own, its not something that we do to keep ourselves from becoming psychotic because thats what makes us not psychotic... but its what happens when you are not psychotic...
because the mind has its own reality testing features still in function and is able to naturally discern that which we see and consider as normal, real, natural... from that which would be considered abnormal, scary, frightnening, life threatening, imagined in the sense that it is about to take us on in the way that we cant prevent with no ability to say that you are part of me or that you are not real....

dont know how much that makes sense... my mind is numb now... so im just trying be conservative...
i absolutely adore psychology...

sorry about posting a separate thread on reality testing, but i couldn't reply on another thread... and i do think about this feature quite often...