It's alright. Everything you feel is alright.

You will feel strong, and then weak. Then a little stronger. You might slip back to him at some point but that's all part of it, too imho.

None of us are all strong all of the time and that goes for every part of life.

Frankly, this is a lousy kind of learning experience for you to have...but you seem to know that it's minute by minute and then hour by hour and then day by day...
Just know that he will have trouble also.

I hope that soon you will be able to trust someone and that they will help your heart heal a little. Sound unreasonable now, but it will happen.

In the mean time, busy busy busy!!! Post post post!!!

We'll help you through however we can.