Hi everyone! Jumping in, new here!

Just wanted to check in. It's been... 6ish months since my T and I sort of... broke up? She gave me an ultimatum (I had literally run away, actually, hopped on a plane and flew away) which was to return home, or we terminate therapy. I chose to stay where I flew to for several months, those close to me even filing a missing persons report.

She was my DBT therapist who changed my life, who made me think, who challenged me in ways no other T has. And I'm still so sad that I lost her.

I wrote a DEAR MAN GIVE FAST and a repair and gave it to her. At least now I feel like we've "ended" on some sort of understanding, I think... I don't know what I was expecting, maybe for her to say "of course you can come back" but I knew that wasn't the case.

I have so much going on. I just can't even. My emotion regulation is out the window.