Right now I am experiencing deep sadness but I am not depressed. Life has been rough to me lately. I have just come out of a horror mixed episode that landed me in hospital 5 times in 7 months. What I went through and the consequences have left me with this sadness. Both my T and pdoc agree that I am not in an episode, it is just a natural reaction to an unnatural experience.

Not right now but at other well times I also experience deep happiness and joy along with the whole gamete of human emotions. I love these times when I am just human and not BP.