I f***ed up at work. I was so unstable between my mania and depression lately that I haven't been doing a good job at work. Now my new boss and old boss hate me. It sucks.

They said they asked my team members what I've been doing, and apparently they're assholes and said they didn't know what I was doing!

I also stupidly FORGOT to write everything down that I'd been doing this past quarter, so when I sent my boss a word document describing what I did, it was technically incomplete because I missed a million things, but I didn't realize it until he was like, "so... What DID you do?"

It's too late now because I don't get a bonus this quarter. My bosses were like, "yeah, you should be more mindful of these things because we would have given you a bonus." F*** me.

It's a real kick in the ***, but I suppose it made me wake up and realize I need to really push my pdoc to help me become stable. I'm also going to start writing up my report as I go. Then I don't have to try to recall what I did or didn't do.

Damn this sucks!

I'm sure some of you can relate