I experience the full spectrum of emotions while not in an episode. Lately I've been mildly depressed because of sickness. I'm always sick, and that gets you down. I keep asking myself if I'm sick because I'm depressed, or if I'm depressed because I'm sick. The answer to that is not entirely clear in my case unfortunately. I get a bit confused and think a major depressive episode is coming on, and then the next day I will feel okay, not be depressed, be relieved..... Only to feel sick and depressed later in the day. I just went through a pretty major manic episode 2 months ago and I'm told you always crash after mania. I've yet to have that crash. Is it coming or am I lucky? Maybe because I didn't crash after mania, I'm not BP? I'm hyper vigilant about entering a depressive episode because I want to catch it early and take my meds right away if it happens. Anyways, I'm kind of all over the place right now but I don't "think" I'm in an episode. Maybe mild depression, but I'm not sure and need to talk to my doctor about it. I have Fibromyalgia and last time I was IP, the doctor said my fibro pain was from my mental illness. If that is the case, I'm sick ALL the time and must be in a constant episode. It's all very confusing for me. I don't think I cycle rapidly but I'm not sure I see things clearly. I try to avoid the trap of blaming BP for every mood I have, but I admit the lines look a little blurry to me at times.