88Butterflies88 I would thank you a hundred times if I could. Couldn't agree more!

Littlered, I'm so sorry. I hope you can just keep working thru this. You are worth it. It is not your fault. Please don't sell yourself short. You did nothing wrong and the burden you bear is unbelievably heavy from the sound of it. I hope you can find a therapist who can help you to heal and love yourself the way you deserve.