Thanks a lot for the support! You really understood what I was getting at and I appreciate it. I actually tried sitting down and talking to my grandmother. It was no use. She basically said she doesn't agree with my "lifestyle" (I've always hated that word). But she went on to say she still likes me. I don't agree with that. I don't think she likes me and I've just been distancing myself from her. It's very hard to do that when we all live together and my mom has actually asked me to get closer to her instead of "shunning" her. So I'm being guilt tripped and it's a bit tough. I'm still distancing myself from her. That's the best thing to do for now. Thanks!

Thanks for the response and support, but that's a lot easier said than done. I don't need her approval but I think the point of my post wasn't understood. Regardless, easier said than done. I could do all of that if I didn't live with her in an apartment. But I do. It's just...Idk, the only people who seem to understand what I'm going through is the members in the survivor's group I go to. Responses like this just make things sound easy, when it's way more complicated than that. I'd be done with her if I had a job, had my own apartment, etc. But that's quite difficult for me right now. So I'm waiting until I get my degree and I'll have a better chance at getting a job.

I'm aware that I'm my own person but my problem was that this whole situation took my voice away and that has been happening since day one. It's what Clairvoyant Boy said; I don't need anyone speaking for me.

I wanted to come out to my grandmother so I could by myself in my own home and so my mom wouldn't keep telling me to whisper whenever I told her I was going to Pride, or whenever I was talking about a woman I liked. Yes, my grandmother doesn't matter where my identity is concerned but when you're living with someone who stifles you in a myriad of ways, you'll want to be free and unapologetically yourself at some point.