I used to lose friends often. Not because we fought, or broke up, but other reasons. I lost some due to depression...especially in my youth. I would get depressed and pull away.......eventually people would stop calling to ask me to hang out...and I would figure they hated me and didn't want to see me so things would drift away. I would also get paranoid about people, so I would pull away....or I would be manic/elevated and be too much for people and they would pull away. I never blamed anyone for leaving, it just was a natural consequence it seemed.

my paranoia/delusions is probably the biggest culprit. The past 3 years I had LONG manic and depressive episodes. My paranoia had me isolating and pushing everyone away. I even thought my mom and husband were out to get me and started worrying about my oldest son being in on it when he called the cops on me for being manic. The only good news is I've finally accepted my paranoia and can see through my distorted thinking. That is a HUGE step forward for me.

I'm sorry your friend ignored you when you asked to hang out again. If you are sure she was ignoring you on purpose (are you sure?) then I completely understand not wanting to keep a friendship. I won't be "begging" people to be my friend and if they make it clear they don't want to be, I'd set them free for their own sake. Just make sure you read it correctly....losing a good friend is tragic.