I really hate that I didn't have brothers to play fight and be my best friend and protector I feel like there is a hole missing even though I am older now. I have never been that close to any boy or a man before and I feel like if I had a brother I could have finally had the chance to be loved and truly understood by a man it makes me feel so sad because I always feel like I will never understand boys and always be hating them because I am confused about them.