I'm getting very tired recently with everything that's going on, very emotional, affection hungry, manic- like.

I dreamed of being on a trip in some strange house along with my friends. There was this boy I once had a great affection for and he came to me and was like "Listen, I'm so into you, feel so good about you, could we meet tomorrow and talk about it?". Then I was stuck in the bathroom and - it was so disgusting, yet pretty symbolical - I had a period I could not control, the blood was everywhere. The same then was with the water in the toilets, which, as I think, stands for shame.