I feel like im somewhat bipolar but I feel like that's offensive. Like im just being ignorant and self-pitying. But depression and social anxiety don't cover all of my symptoms. And my dad said there's bipolar depression on his side. And I still have a bunch of nutritional deficiencies but I feel like that's not all the damage there is to be fixed.

All I know is that sometimes when I get happy I get tooooooooooooooo happy like I could do and say and think anything and everything and I want to do anything and everything perfectly. And when I get sad... I get tooooooooooooooo sad but not automatically or immediately suicidal just really tired and indifferent.

And in both states I'm indecisive and unrealistic and irrational about most things and my thoughts race a lot. But not too happy or sad enough to be bipolar depression? I'm 15 so I can't do excessive shopping or drinking or sex or anything too reckless. And when I don't get a lot of sleep... well I don't really know what good sleep is but I assume that I'm sleep deprived. So I don't know. And I know it's different for everyone and I can't expect a clear diagnosis from this forum or online but can anyone give any insight about anything I said? [emoji20] [emoji17]

Also, I have mood swings but I don't think they are as powerful as in bipolar depression.

And I don't act a lot of my thoughts about myself out so I don't think my impulses are a problem. But the problem is that it is really all in my head and I don't know why my brain spews out such crazy thoughts.

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