my husband has tried to control me in an effort to "save me from myself". I had to be pretty blunt a few times and firmly state "you are my husband, not my father. I'm not a child!" He listened and is much better now (most of the time). He had also saved me from myself on a few occasions so mostly I'm grateful for his watchful eye. When I'm stable, he sometimes is still on guard and falls into the over-protective parent role. I calmly remind him and he's good at reeling it in.

I get delusional about the Internet from time to time. I feel people are following me on it and I continually try to show him the proof that I'm being followed. He will get upset and start telling me I have to stay off the internet. My oldest son and mother also beg me to stay off the internet. They are probably right when they do this, but I'm an adult and fail to listen when it happens.

When I'm manic, I really resent being "controlled" and can get very upset at anyone who tries to bring me down or piss on my parade. I will sometimes think my husband is overly controlling and holding me back. I get a bit paranoid about it when I'm unwell.

So yes, I think o do understand. I'm sorry you are feeling this way. They do it because they love us, but I know all too well the horrible feelings it can create.