I actually feel similar to this, it can be hard for me because I feel.e emotions so deeply especially irritability and sadness. I do think I'm in a depressive episode right now, and it is hard to tell if it really is major depression or if it is just general sadness, then I remember I'm experiencing little.to no joy, even when I smile, laugh etc. An some.days it's every mood at once I experience which makes it even harder to tell what's going on. But now that I'm in DBT I keep a diary card to keep track of some of my moods, (not all since it's more tailored to BPD stuff and not BP moods, but a joy and sadness rating scale.are.on there, so that's good), so maybe it'll become a little eaiser to tell moods from episodes, with that tool. I should really keep a mood tracker though, I just don't know what would be a good one, or if I could remember to do it daily.