I have ocd (pure o), severe GAD, and mild depression. Lately I have been experiencing extreme and almost unbearable guilt over things I have done in the past. For example, when I was in high school i was a compulsive liar and have recovered about 95% after feeling sorry for what I did and trying to change. Once in awhile a lie still almost unconsciously slips out of my mouth but it's always about something irrelevant. I want to be compLately rid of that behavior though, and am really trying. Something else I have been obsessing about is how last fall I began feeling extremely dizzy felt sick 24/7, did some "research" online and I self diagnosed myself with a health condition called POTS. I truly believed I had it and all my symptoms matched 100%. It was a horribly scary time for me. I moved home and lived with my parents for 2 months because i though my POTS would get so severe that I would start fainting all the time (a severe symptom of the disorder). I demanded to be pushed around in a wheelchair because I was terridied of the horrible dizziness and so afraid of fainting. Whenever my parents made me stand, I would exaggerate my symptoms because I was afraid they would see that my wheelchair was just a security blanket and make me walk without it (something I was terrified to do). However with my history of lying I became worried that I was just acting sick for the attention. I do admit, I did like the attention. It was so comforting when I was scared. Every specialist I saw did confirm that I had POTS. But I gradually became aware that all (or for sure most) of what I was experiencing was anxiety and felt even worse. I became agoraphobic too, and used the excuse of being dizzy to avoid going to stores I was afraid of. I caused my parents such excess worry and I already apologized to them a million times. I feel like such a horrible person, 7 months later and I'm pretty sure all the symptoms I had of POTS were anxiety and can't believe myself.