Meds have also calmed my anger to a manageable place. In the past I have thrown things at people, ran my head into a palm tree, driven very recklessly in anger and rage and yelled and screamed at my (ex) husband over petty things. I was wild and out of control a lot of the time. Many times it led to me being suicidal directly after my explosion. It was scary and destructive.

Lithium seemed to calm me down as do some anti-psychotics and benzodiazepines (be careful with those as they are addictive and can sometimes have the reverse effect by making you more out of control). I hope you can find some peace soon as I know how hard it is to live like that.