Most helpful thing I've been told:
After a year of intense mood journaling in an effort to find patterns so I could use them to manage my bipolar, we found no patterns except aconsistent lack of patterns. My therapist said, "These life events are happening, and you are trying to find a connection with your mood, but there isn't one. You have less control than you think. Your mood operates independently of you." He said I needed to accept that my mood is outside of my control and just do the basic maintenance.

I finally relinquished my futile and frustrating efforts to control bipolar with willpower.

My question:
Is your stay in the hospital a relief or horrible?