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"Do you think he would think me entirely crazy if I proposed to him?"

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> OMFG, what a total Freudian slip?!! That is hilarious!

sister, I have fantasized too about going for a walk with T. I sometimes arrive early for my session and go for a walk by myself. His office is on the shore of a lake, and it's pleasant. Lots of people out jogging, boaters rowing or sailing on the water... It would be really nice to walk that stretch with T. I drove a rental car to therapy once and was quite enamored of it. I had a fantasy that I told T about it and together we went to look at it in the parking lot, and we went for a drive (I let him drive).

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On some level could you be apprehensive of the deeper work that now appears to be looming? Would a change in location take you out of the hot seat?

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Hmmmm, that's interesting, sister. I'm not sure. I actually have been viewing the direction T wants to take in therapy as more surface than deep (my hopes and dreams for the future rather than delving into my psyche and past to figure out the origins of me). But maybe it is not more surface after all. Hmmmm. But I think really the reason I want to see him outside the office is because I have this apprehension about our upcoming meetings outside the office. So I want to practice it first in session, even if it's just a baby step. I think I am afraid our relationship will evaporate outside the office and when I see him at our meetings, we will be strangers, and it will cause dissonance and freak me a bit, and distract me from the really important business of our meetings, at which a number of other people will be present. I am anxious about these meetings because of their content, and the added anxiety of having T there when I have never been with him outside of his office just adds to the stress.

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I doubt they will leave their little rooms for a walk

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">Ha, ha, that seems almost a challenge to me, Perna. Now I am really curious to see if my T will. He is unconventional, so I bet he would go outside with me. I'm just not sure I can risk the embarrassment of asking him to do something so weird for me. A few weeks ago, I had therapy on the weekend, with my husband. T doesn't usually work on weekends. Anyway, the building was locked, so T had to come downstairs and out the building to let us in. I remember thinking as I followed him up the stairs, how cool it was I saw him outside the building and that we were walking up stairs together. (Pathetic, I know.) One time, in session, many months ago, he made a phone call about a meeting he had to go to right after my session. He was arranging a ride to it with a friend. "Be here at such and such a time, I can't be late," etc. And he told this friend where the meeting was, and it was on my way after session, and I believe he knew this. I always wondered if he was somehow hinting to me that he would like me to offer him a ride. This was early in therapy, and I just was not prepared to give T a ride anywhere. We would have to sit side by side in my car for a while! The passenger side of my car was a disaster! He would get crumbs on his pants. What would we say?! Would it be awkward?! It was too much, too soon, lol. Now, I wouldn't hesitate to offer him a ride if this happened again, but back then, no way. (Strange how things have changed. I feel like I know him now.)

ETA: Perna, what kind of story did you want your T to tell you, and why wouldn't she?