Hello (((SONGS))). I am sorry that you are suffering to this degree. Do you have a therapist at this time that you can talk to about how you are feeling? I am concerned since you are obviously upset and need help refocusing your attention on the positive things that you can accomplish in your life. There are many options that you have to change the way you feel and turn the rejectionyou feel at this time into something positive. you can Join Groups, go to a Class such as Yoga, exercise or martial arts, or Church and try to be arround supportive people that care for you and Not Just your looks. You are missing the boat entirely if you succeed in feeling worthwhile because of something as superficial as looks, and you dont work on what matters in life such as sincerity, kindness, and competency. . I am very sorry that you have believed this deception to the point that it is haming you to this degree. I have to admit we have all been there needing to fit in by looking as people should have us look to their advantage, but what good is someone elses judgement you are being judged by someone elses self worth, and you are only being judged by looks alone.Ihope you feel better soon and things get better soon. Call a friend that you can trust and get out of the house for a while and try to get your mind on something POSITIVE for a while. Take care.Soidhonia .