i went for a nap, I felt a bit down earlier and wanted to be on my own for a while.

I dreampt my mother found out everything I'd been saying about her to my pdoc. She was ranting and raving and slammed the phone down. I tried to call back, but in my dream just couldn't dial the correct number. It's really upset me as I have draughted a letter to send to her to give me some space as I am going through quite intensive therapy and she triggers me. It's written in a nice way just asking for her to respect my wishes and to not be in touch until I'm ready. I haven't sent it yet.
She has been trying to make amends recently and is in denial about the abuse, I feel quite anxious now, and guilty, I dont think I can do this to her. Any suggestions? She is narcississtic according to my pdoc, never wrong and still puts me down a lot.

I'm torn, guilty, sad and just wish I could get rid of this darned anxious feeling after the dream. Other things happened in the dream too, I had called her and she shouted about never being able to watch the programmes she likes on tv cos the phone kept ringing, so I shouted at her and told her I'd just leave her alone then. My mum has always been selfish and put me last in the past when I was a child and now in the present. Sorry to rant, must be on my mind.

Jinny