I always felt like it was odd...people saying they felt all these ways when their T left or dismissed the.
Well golly gee, they can get another, Right?
Well My pastor (if you have been in chat with me you have heard about Pastor Bill) is leaving the church.
First he went to 1/3 time due to the budget. As a pastor, he does outreach, not just sermons. Well, the budget issue made him seek a new path and he will be a Hospice Chaplain.
I notice he doesn't keep an eye on me on Facebook or check on me now...Next week is his last week.
Pastor Bill knew my mother n law so well. My mother n law took me in when I was 15...my parents up and moved to Florida and she was my boyfriend's mother at the time. She was such a special woman. Drove me crazy, but is the reason for I am today. She died several years ago. I wasn't always the perfect DIL. But she saved me. It felt like being next to her at church every week with him there (and some others who knew her).
I am not angry with him, but I haven't been to church since he announced he is leaving. I have been repressing my feelings. Next week is his last week and I don't know...finally I messaged him that I was feeling badly.
I don't know why I am having so much trouble coping. I guess because it brings the whole constellation of abandonment to the surface for me. However I felt I worked through this.
Can anyone relate or just say something nice?
My heart hurts.
Pastor Bill helped me through tough times, never judged.
I know people don't like religion but hey, I am hurting