It has been a while since I posted and wanted to give an update. I finally got fed up with my coworker and quit my job. I gave two weeks notice and ended on good terms with my supervisor. Honestly, I have no regrets and I am so much happier. No more anxiety and neck aches. I AM FREE!!!! I feel like I got released from jail and now I can do what ever I want when I want. This includes going to school during the day!

Financially I am okay for a while, but the problem is I don't want to get a job. My social anxiety has flared up. I just want to stay home and not have to interact with the world.

The other issue that has crept back is low self esteem and dropping confidence. I'm starting to wonder if I can really graduate college and if I am smart enough. It's like I have a very low opinion of myself. I think everyone is smarter than me. When I make a mistake I beat myself up relentlessly thinking I'm dumb and can't handle what I am doing.

I'm mainly venting, but would appreciate any advice on how to deal with my feelings. I have not seen my counselor in a year and stopped because I made a lot of progress and was in a good place. Maybe I need to have a tune up with my counselor.

Thanks for listening.