Well most of you know I've been a mess lately. I've posted in my "good and bad" thread about the details. But one thing I mentioned there deserves its own thread:

My T has many times told me about the importance of sharing feelings, asking for help, etc. I've always been bad at it. But just yesterday and today I really shared a lot of my feelings. I told my sister how upset I've been -- every detail all the way down to feeling like I want to hurt myself. The kind of stuff I would never tell a soul for fear of being too needy, driving them nuts, etc.

And you know what? It helped a lot. As it turns out my sister is a great support and doesn't seem to think ill of me for any of the things I've said. She couldn't have been more helpful really.

I feel good about that.

I still feel bad in general -- insomnia, problems with obsessive thinking, bad thoughts about wanting to hurt myself, feeling useless and hopeless in general. But it did help. I'm actually spending the night at my sister's place tonight because I was able to share that I can't be alone lately without losing my mind.

Therapy will always be the best thing I've ever done for myself.

Sidony