If you already been through this in your early age means it's a phase more than a sickness. I will definitely read this book and I am sure it will explain everything, seek out for professionals later.
What I figured out myself, I have histrionic personality disorder but it affected me more when I isolated my self. since yesterday I am controlling it and I am feeling well, although it's hard to control it. Since yesterday I am doing things not to show others but what is right, I haven't succeeded much but I am sure ill get to it, once I have more explanation to give to myself.

Meanwhile if you have anything please feel free to suggest!

Blessing to us All!