Ok, let's make things clear.

I've been following a few of your posts and let me tell you. Everything is so confusing.

Do you like men or not? Before, you said you had romantic feelings towards a friend of yours.

Please, don't take anything i say wrong. I'm really trying to help around, but the way you say and do things are quite dangerous.
I didn't read the whole last thread, but i assume you did some webcaming. See where am i going?
Don't be so destructive to yourself. If i may guess, you have never been in a relationship, or at least, not a fulfilling one. You don't need these things to be happy, and we (men) can sense it when a woman either looks for a guy for mere interest or for the sake of finding a guy.

Roses, please work on yourself. Self esteem, security, studies, friendships, social skills, etc. This world is getting tougher everyday, and if you continue walking this path, someone might actually take a huge advantage to you (i hope not of course)
Please be safe and work on yourself.