my mum called and I eneded up crying on the phone and telling her I needed space and that it isn't the end or anything I just need time while I'm going through therapy. She agreed not to get in contact but she will send me a birthday card and a Christmas card etc. I feel guilty like I knew I would, she respects my wishes and took it quite well, although I know she will be upset.

She still thinks it's all about my abuser and not what she put me through, she is in denial I think.

Anyway, I feel better and worse if that makes sense. I know she is there for me she said that. But she has to learn to stop putting me down and critisising me.

Jin xx