i'm gonna try responding to this but discussing spirituality is difficult for me... it's something i feel but find very challenging to verbalize...

i was weak and broken down and that moment came, letting go, admitting my powerlessness and seeking help just as it'd been described from "god", the higher power...

in my case it took time because while ready in heart, i wasn't ready in mind...

God took his sweet time with me, allowed me to fall back a few times but each time i came a little closer to where i am today, that all is God's plan and it is the only plan there is...