I'm sorry to hear about your stresses. I too was once dx with BPD I no longer consider myself that. After many years with regular therapist I finally found a "trauma therapist" to help me. My root came from sexually abuse and a bit of neglect from my family. So I'm a much better person these days. I too was aggressive and self hating but I'm not anymore. The specialized therapy I used was called:
EMDR google it. Also look for a therapist who uses the techniques. This therapy may help you as it did me. [emoji4]

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