I think I know why I am so anxious about the situation with my old schoolmate. It's not just the reaction I might get, which is a part of it. I feel that maybe I shouldn't have even expressed my feelings. Don't even admit when something is bothering you to other people. I have a hard time being vulnerable and opening up like that makes me vulnerable and I cannot trust that she would be caring. I feel like we live in a society where everyone has to be strong and pretend that everything is ok. Put on a mask when entering society. Admitting vulnerability allows people to attack you for that very reason. Even though certain interactions we had bother me, I feel like I should have kept it to myself forever. At this point in life I feel more lost and vulnerable than ever and bringing up that conversation just makes me feel worse. I kinda feel ashamed for allowing myself to be vulnerable.