I have been seeing him for six years. I have attachment/developmental problems. I attached to him in the first 18 months. We have been doing very deep work. I did not know how much trauma I carried ( i denied/suppressed most of it).
He announced he is leaving June 2017 because he wants to not re- new his contract.
He admits this is premature for me as I am not in a fit state to end therapy yet. But he is not only still leaving, he is now insisting that my sessions reduce in length and then I start losing sessions. I am in panic. Understatement. I feel like he is actually pinning me to the ground and punching me each time he says' we need to make this session shorter' or 'we need to start dropping sessions'. I have argued with him on this until the cows come home. he does not budge even when I tell him it is detrimental to me and damaging and that I sincerely need to manage reducing sessions times and number myself. I keep yelling at him that I need to have some control here, that I hate being pinned to the floor and punched in the face with him taking the control here. He keeps saying he is only asking us to discuss it but he asks me every single session and sometimes shortens the session anyway.
I would walk away but I am so attached to him. Like a child of about three. On a good day like a child of about 14.