So it seems lately that every time I try to defend/explain /stick up for myself and get a little loud people say I'm just being crazy. In my mind I'm just trying to get others to understand where I'm coming from or how I'm feeling and I talk loudly or yell because I feel like I'm not being heard. And this turns into frustration which in turn becomes an argument. And here lately that turns into me having hurt feelings and being angry. I've begun to emotionally dissolve and act irrationally because I feel helpless and misunderstood and begin to cry and fall into depression. I'm not exactly sure why I cannot handle these situations but they get thrown back into my face over and over that I went crazy again and acted stupid. I honestly feel like what I'm trying to argue is valid. That I'm not just trying to argue. I honestly hate arguing. This has been going on between my spouse and I for a couple weeks. Specifically in reference to two things. Her tone and attitude which come off as angry and sick of me and her continuing friendship and need to hang out with her ex girlfriend. She says I manipulate her all the time. However I've caught her manipulating and lying to me about aspects of their relationship and I honestly just don't believe anything that's said about it anymore. But if I express concerns or worries I'm just being irrational and I should trust her that they are just friends. I don't feel as if my feelings have been taken into consideration in this situation. My close friends feel like I should start the road to separation and divorce because she is not good for me. I don't know what to do.

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