I still can't believe I said that. I thought maybe it would sink in, but really I'm just stewing in it. His response was really great though-- I'll never forget that. I almost wanted to call him today to tell him that the entire session was a delusion and that nothing he remembered from it was accurate. Before I left yesterday I said, "Is it possible that maybe you would entirely forget that I said that?" lol Seriously though, I sort of wanted to call him and just ask, "Are we ok?" I never wanted to say anything like that because I felt like maybe it would push him away. But then I figured by him giving me those CDs at the very end of the session meant that we are ok. He will be at a training next Fri. and Sat. and I won't be able to see him on Fri. at all cause all he has is an afternoon slot.... so I am seeing him on Tuesday instead. I'm glad because now I only have to wait two more days but I'm also sad b/c then I'll have to wait more than a week til I see him again. In a way I am relieved that I "let the cat out" so to speak.... It has been a long time coming. I told him about lots of "unnamed transference" and "other feelings" but this was the 1st time I ever said it directly.