i wish i really could find peace but i dont know how. i picked a really crappy time to stop drinking. im trying so hard not to SI but have just a bit.the amount of damage i want to do to my arm is even a bit insane for me. the urge is just constant and of course my T has been on Vacation and doesnt get back til next week. i refuse to speak with any of her colleagues even though she said shed give me their number. i also refuse to call, text, or email her. shes on vacation im not going to bother her. besides i promised i wouldnt due anything rash.