Tonight I am even more angry cos I feel ill and there is no one to care and it makes me angry cos I know my mum and sister are glad I have no one and they want me to never have anyone to love me and that makes me want to hurt them badly!How dare they be happy that I am alone and in pain and unloved what gives them the right to want me to suffer loneliness and unhappiness and pain!**** them to hell!
When I bought my house and my cousin who fits carpets came to fit my carpets he said that my house was a good size big enough for two and my sister got angry and shouted at him,' no She is on her own', and she implied I was going to stay that way if it was up to her.I have a murderous rage going on when I think of all the cruel and nasty things she has done to me over 35 years...the heat is making that anger worse.