It's benign stalking, but indicative of a need that isn't being met. I hope, even if you feeling uncomfortable talking about what you did, that you will at least tell her how unbearable the long intervals between sessions are. I haven't stalked someone in person but I am a compulsive google-stalker with certain people, particularly in the beginning of the relationship. I am a researcher by nature, which makes it worse. I struggle with knowing some things I shouldn't. I know I am 100% harmless, but I would be mortified if T discovered that I have seen his *public* family tree with birthdays and names of every family member. I wish I could unsee it. I want to tell him it's public so he can remove it, but I can't! So I am not upfront about that, but I make it known in other ways that I feel very attached to him, and I struggle with separation. He is very clear on that, and I feel he is more gentle with me knowing that I struggle.