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Originally Posted by eskielover
Something I have learned over the years......is that God will give you the answer you are asking for & until He does, it's best to do NOTHING but keep working on therapy & growing & learning how to best care for yourself. That way if God does give you the indication that it's right to go back, you will be stronger at caring for yourself & God knows the right time even for that.
I was honestly surprised when God opened the door for me to be able to walk away from my 33 year marriage because I thought God hated for marriages to end & that we were supposed to try to keep making them work no matter what. I know that God opened the door because I have been so blessed since walking through it & know what life would have been like if I had stayed.....but it took 13 years of really bad life (at the end of the 33 years) before that door was opened so that I could get out without having a horrible mess to deal with.
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I know God was totally with me in my leaving. Things just fell together to easily. My parents were able to take us in, then after 3 months, my sister bought a house and the house she was renting from my parents was vacant. That made room for us right away. I got food stamps, and have had no problems paying my bills. The church has been supportive, my T has been supportive. Things have just gone so smoothly.
I now have a peace about my decision to return. A peace, not a certainty of success, but at least a peace. I feel like I need to give my H a chance. I am afraid many days to make that change, so many things could go wrong and I know that. But I also know my T is watching, my parents are watching, the school is watching, and God is watching. I am stronger, and I have a back up plan. I can see red flags in some areas, but I think I can deal with that stuff for right now. If it gets to be to much, I tried. That is all I can do. This is the last time I leave and return. If I leave again I will not return.