I'm so lonely today. I've spent the past few months focusing on a relationship that i've known is impossible and could never work. I've spent all my time with him, canceled plans with other people, and kind of closed myself off. Now the reality is here, and it's definitely for the best, but i can barely stand being on my own. Seems so needy, pathetic. I know i'm ok on my own, but it doesn't feel like that. I feel like i can't even say anything useful enough to be on this message board, i'm just wasting all the space i take up.

Everything in my life goes in circles. There is no way to make it stop, ever. Just around and around, chasing my tail. I never learn anything it seems