All of the above.

If life is what you make of it then I am responsible for bringing down a world of hurt upon myself and am responsible for the despicable actions of other people over a period of almost 5 decades. For people with long term depression its more a case of just trying to enjoy those small moments that present themselves, as best you can, just to help get you through.

My life is not fun and like QueenCopper I pretty much get through the work day and go to bed but from time to time I can and do smile and I know the things and people who are associated with those moments and so when I can I pursue their time and company.

Its about trying hard to crawl out of that black hole.