First, how are you, loco4? You haven't posted in your thread again. I hope you are feeling better about your behavior and have told your T how infrequent sessions affect you.

I can identify with your behavior because I have done it too. I don't consider myself a stalker though I know some people on this forum considered me one when I started a thread about driving by my T's house. I did it when she moved to a different house too. I didn't want to cause her any harm. I just wanted to see where she lived. I felt guilty and told her. She understood but didn't like it. I never did it again.

Years before with my first T, after I terminated with her, I realized I could see her office at night from my doctor's office nearby. I used to go there on purpose. I realize that's a very stalkerish activity. I wrote her a letter and confessed, and she sent me a certified letter firmly suggesting I see aT right away. I did.

I felt compelled to do those spying activities in order to get closer to my Ts. I have attachment issues and that's how they manifest themselves. So now I Google instead so I can't be called a stalker anymore?