i'm not coping with him leaving. thats whats going on for me. yeah, my period has been a killer this month (worst period i've ever had in my life) but i figure thats probably made worst by the psychosomatic stuff.
i haven't felt like this since... he had his month off. i feel so immensely fragile. just want to sleep all the time... numb... crampy... would take valium if only i could find it. turned my room upside down twice but couldn't find it, though.
everything is just seeming overwhelming. slept all day so i'm figuring some coffee in a little while... then i'll get cracking on my seminar.
it is just really terrifying to me. he leaves for one week. that is one missed session. and this is how i respond... i so thought 'rationally' i was doing just fine.
but i've been angry (at him even) and i've been demanding (send me some valium) and i've been tearful and paranoid and its been horrible basically. trying to hang in there... trying... but its %#@&#! floored me.
i don'tunderstand.
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