First episode in two years. Feeling depressed and lethargic and guilty. I feel so guilty that this causes my loved ones strain and makes their life harder. I completely turned my life around. Transformed my body, got stable, got off drugs (abusing adderall and xanax), and quit smoking...now I'm just scared to death I'm going to ruin everything I've worked so hard for. It's so hard to keep going to the gym but I have to. I know I have to. Sitting around in this misery is awful.

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