Hello Kale77: Welcome to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.

I'm sorry you have had so much difficulty in your life. I don't know as I have any great suggestions for you. What I typically suggest is that people consider becoming involved in some kind of volunteer activities of some sort in some area of interest.

From my perspective people have to have something in common (hopefully something positive... although even this isn't always the case) before they can expect to develop some kind of relationship. It seems to me that, among the "universe" of people who would share common interests with you is where you might be most likely to meet someone with whom you might be able to develop a relationship. And, even if this never happens, at least you have the satisfaction of being of benefit to others in your community. Helping others is itself pretty-much considered to be a good depression reliever.

PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. There are many knowledgeable & caring members here. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!