I thought I had it under control and to myself but throughout the years I think it's become more apparent to others. I remember this one time driving and my ex was next to me and he was looking at me oddly. I didn't know that he was going to divorce me the weekend after but I noticed a him looking. That look he gave brought me back to my surroundings and I believe I was smiling at the time and I caught myself. It was similar to when my son caught me smiling as well but my sons reaction was of hatred. He just made it known.