(((MOUSE))). I am sorry that you are suffering. I see in your post that you are trying to remain constant in your need for nurturing from a female role model. I feel that your therapist is very insightful of your needs and treats you Special indeed. I can tell by some of your posts you are really connecting to your therapist in a positve manner to be able to improve and move on in life. I think therapists are like messangers they analyze the need and help to meet the needs of every client. I sincerely feel that your therapist is trying to meet your needs without entrapping you in a fanasy or fantasian expetations, where your needs will not be met in a secure or therapeutic manner. I also feel that your therapist is trying to give you an example of what being nurtured is all about Sharing and Caring and experiencing life in a safe manner nd that is neessary at any age. I know it must seem that she is holdng you back from feeling wanted and you are feeling confused and rejected, but it takes more than 3 months to find a way to peel off the layers of resentment and need that was not administered when you were younger. But I feel that you are improving and you will be left with a better sense of self while attending therapy with the therapist that you have at this time. Dont give up healing is somewhat painful but it is pain and assurance that you can take with you for a lifetime. Take care (((MOUSE))). PM anytime. Soidhonia