I am so sorry your are going thru this. If you are seriously considering death, get help now. Tell your parents, call a hotline, call a friend.

Unexpected pregnancies very often throw everyone's emotions into high gear panic/stress/anger mode in the beginning. So the feelings you guys are experiencing now have been felt by many others. Things will calm down, and you guys will then find it easier to discuss possible options.

Take a deep breath, relax, and think about anything but this pregnancy for a couple of hours. It will help to recenter yourself, and your thoughts.