The full-time position is with another employer but all the services are interconnected in the UK anyway.

Perna, I think you might have hit the nail on the head there! Perfection! I'm very flawed, many problems. My T is right, whatever I do I have to keep going with the therapy. He has said to me before that there is the 'perfect T' and the 'flawed T.' My T likes the flawed T.

Well my brain isn't swimming around so much as it was. I think it was the fear of maybe having to give up my therapy. That's not been mentioned. In fact T has told me I MUST continue it. That would be good self-care, right?