Anger, fear and paranoia,hey Skeezyks,it does matter.You shouldn't be suffering so either.I do relate to you being in your late 60's and still being angry about things that happened in your childhood.I am the same though in my early 50's.All the wounds from childhood are still inside me stored in my body,there is a reluctance to unearth them.If I did maybe they could be healed and released,I know I would have to feel my way through the original wounds and we fear that more than anything don't we even though they are not as painful as the memory of them is when we go back and unleash them!
You need to take care Skeezyks and stop saying you are old now and it doesn't matter.It does matter,take care of those old wounds Skeezyks.Hugs from me!