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Originally Posted by s4ndm4n2006
Don't cop out on this one. If you tell yourself "well I'd forgive them and blah blah blah" That's ******** and you and I know it is. I say this because typically it's a knee jerk reaction to what I just said. Think, ponder and analyze what it feels like to be betrayed, cheated on and lied to and then once you truly understand her position you can probably figure out what you should do. I make no guarantees here either. what you "should" do and what will happen are two different things.
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I don't know how I would feel honestly. I am a very forgiving person. I have been cheated in the past, and I wanted to know if it was something I did, and if I could make it better. But, I find woman only cheat when they don't feel loved, or something emotional.
We defiantly had our issues, the biggest being money. But, we always overcame our fights, and set them aside. I am starting to look back on it, and as I have said to my friends, I wasn't the greatest husband. But, work, money started to take its toll on me. I am hoping that this isn't truly the end, and this is healing time for the both of us. I don't know what it is, but I honestly feel like it isn't over. I don't know if this is me holding on to hope, or this is actually something. She isn't the most forgiving person, and she has stated this before. But, I have seen her forgive, but it isn't easy.
I am doing what I can do prove how sorry I am. I don't want anyone else, I want my wife, I vowed to spend my life with her, and I still want to do that.
If, this is truly the end. I would be crushed, especially for my son. I don't want him to have two have to separate parents. I am also, so afraid for some other man to step in and become another father. (I don't know if she will date right away, or if at all) I know, I will not for a very long time. As, I really have to start searching deep to figure out, just why I did what I did. I really don't have answers, It wasn't like, at the time I was searching, the conversations I had just went that way out of nowhere, and it become addicting.
I don't know if anyone on here believes in the law of attractions, but I have started to look into it, I have heard amazing things from this.
I have grown to believe time heals a heart, I will do whatever! it takes to prove how badly I want to fix our marriage.
She, hasn't pushed for divorce, and like I said, in the begging she seemed like it would be fixed, she even once stated about me moving out, that it wasn't permanent, but she went back on that.
As the holidays approach, without sounding selfish, I hope she comes around, this is my sons first really Christmas, and I don't want to miss Santa
Or his first trick or treating.......