What others see is not who we are. Who we are cannot be taken from us or even dictated to us. I'm so s, orry you were so badly triggered and I can imagine anyone would be with your background.

I gave my T original letters to me from my aunt telling me about myself as a young child and about my family's background and my aunt's and father's lives, etc. and other official papers gathered through the years but never asked for them back. I didn't give my T anything I didn't want her to have, willingly. I had another T years earlier who I gave poems to and he used them in a talk to other therapists. I let them talk, they don't "know" me because yesterday I wrote such and such a poem. I'm a living, breathing entity and continuously growing and changing.

I use to fear telling other people my ideas for fear they'd take and use them but then I realized that I don't have "limits" like that, I can come up with more ideas and it is only by using mySelf, my creativity and "practicing" coming up with ideas that it will continuiously flow. I don't think I can hold on to what I was, stay static and "safe", that's an illusion. I am "self-contained", yes, like a river is contained within its banks but I am not impermeable, I allow my fish to be caught and used to nourish others and love to play with children who throw rocks in and watch the ripples or who swim in my quiet pools on hot summer days.

Good resting {{{freewill}}}